My healing toolkit for sensitive souls
What helps me as I heal from C-PTSD (childhood trauma). For your dark night of the soul and beyond!
In the darkness, is where you find your light …
At twenty eight years old, when I entered the world of self-development, my anxiety had reached fever pitch, my inner critic was screaming at me – I couldn’t relax.
They call this a Dark Night of the Soul. It is usually triggered by a significant life change. The break up of a relationship, the death of a loved one, a health crisis, loss of a job or whatever your rock bottom looks like. It can also be triggered by the birth of a chid, especially for parents who lost their own parent at a young age.
“It is only when we are truly alone, without someone else to lean on, left with our own inner solitude that we can undergo a process of change. The introspection that is needed to bring out the light that has dwindled down to ash and reignite the fire of our being. So let the darkness shape you, let it reform you, let it cradle you and birth you into a new life. Let the spark flame again, in the darkness is where you will find it.” ― LJ Vanier
I found it impossible to be home alone, so I would go out walking. Nature is a great leveller. Mother Earth holds us. On my return, I would drown out the circus in my head with audio teachings by Louise Hay, Wayne Dyer and other Hay House greats. My Reiki healer introduced me to them and she also taught me how to give myself Reiki.
My inner child was terrified as all her hurty bits could no longer be held in. They came out of the darkness to be healed. Listening to audio books, webinars and workshops was like having a calm, reassuring parent with me at all times. Their voices were soothing and gave me hope. They reassured me that my pain was normal given the environment I had been raised in. They inspired me to look beyond the pain and squeeze more joy out of my life.
I can also remember when I found Susan Jeffers’ book ‘Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway!’ I read it in a day and then spent the weekend dipping in and out of it. It was a huge comfort to me reading her words over and over. I felt like she understood me and helped me make sense of all the chaos and confusion that was both in me and around me.
Not only did I learn so much, it sparked my curiosity and lead me into a whole new world. Over the years, I became a spiritual detective and experimented with different healing modalities, read more books, and went to therapy. I trained as a Life and Child Coach and went on to work with hundreds of children. This was life changing as I met my inner child and learned to love her as she deserved to be loved.
You can read more about my inner child experience HERE.
“It is my birth right to live fully and freely. I am worth loving. I now choose to live life fully.” – Louise L. Hay
It has been a long path – two decades and I’ve put all the pieces together and worked out who I was, what I needed and how I wanted to live my life. It was very different to the way I had been raised and caused me to question everything I knew and thought I loved.
What’s inside my Healing Toolkit?
Follows are the essential elements of my healing toolkit. I also use some of them in my work as a Coach, but they might not be everybody’s recipe for success. In here I’ll also reference relevant episodes from my podcast, ‘The Wildheart Diaries’ which I invite you to listen to. Take what resonates for you and leave the rest. Trust that whatever you feel drawn to or whatever is part of your toolkit, is right for you.
1 - A Good Trauma Therapist
I have worked with an excellent therapist whose approach is existential and psycho-dynamic. She also specialises in addiction, childhood trauma and abuse. It’s really important to work with somebody who understands trauma and can provide a safe container (secure attachment) from which you can build emotional safety and heal.
2 - Surround Yourself with Safe People
If you live with or spend a significant amount of time with unsafe or toxic people, you will eventually get sick. Your body knows! People that feel like ‘home’, or who are ‘familiar’ (notice the word family is in there), are not always safe. Go slow, take your time to get to know people. I talk more about less obvious unsafe people in this episode of The Wildheart Diaries.
Read, read & read some more to educate yourself on the impact of childhood trauma. It’s so important to understand and make sense of your lineage – I talk about the impact of generational trauma this episode of The Wildheart Diaries.
3 - Journal from the Voice of Your Inner Child
This healing approach is threaded throughout The Wildheart Diaries work because it formed the foundation of my work with children. It recognizes that our behaviours as an adult, stem from our childhood experiences. Inner child work focuses on addressing our unmet needs by reparenting ourselves. It is a lifelong commitment to self-love.
You can hear me talk about my inner teen specifically in this episode.
You can also learn how to journal along with your inner child HERE.
4 - Journal With Oracle Cards
In this episode of the podcast, I talk about how I use Oracle and Tarot cards in my journaling practice. For me the cards act as a mirror reflecting back to me my blind spots or bringing awareness to thoughts, beliefs and parts of me that have been buried below the veil of my conscious mind.
You can download my Journal Starter Kit HERE.
Over time, this has helped me deal with negative, intrusive thoughts, general anxiety, confusion and self-doubt. Journaling has also helped me trust myself again and reconnected me to my gut feelings and intuition (the part of me that knows what feels right for me).
5 - Learn to Manage your Energy
Ground, harness and protect your energy so you feel safe. Safety is the order of the day before anything else. As a Wildheart, you’re super sensitive to your environment. In particular the emotions, moods and unspoken words of the people you hang out with (see point #2). The following excerpt taken from my book, Stuck Between Two Worlds explains it perfectly. If you read my book, you’ll discover that I have intentionally woven tips and tricks for navigating the world with a sensitive skin into this magical story. You, and your inner child will find it validating and healing if you grew up in chaos and dysfunction.
“You could walk into a room and sense the mood of the people in it. It’s like their feelings stick to you like Velcro or you absorb them like a sponge. You could be queuing in a shop and all of a sudden feel a pang of anger or sadness which could be from the person standing next to you. Over time you’ll learn to work out what belongs to you and what belongs to others. That’s why we must protect our energy Ruby, because we get tired feeling everybody else’s feelings, and it also makes it hard to be with our own.”
– Stuck Between Two Worlds, Lisa Parkes
6 - Create a Routine
Structure and boundaries helped me to feel safer. Something I also found helpful was to schedule in quiet time which allowed me to prioritise self-care. Otherwise I found myself constantly at the bottom of the list. Do you first! Fill your cup and then give to others. When you give from a cup that is overflowing, you give from a place of love. I find that often people who are anxious and depressed have overlooked the simple things like a healthy diet, gentle exercise, water, a good night’s sleep, no caffeine or alcohol and limited screen time.
7 - Let Music Speak to Your Heart
There’s so much healing magic in music – not just the vibrational energy of the melody, but also the lyrics, the tempo, the harmony that all bring your feelings to the surface. Try singing at the top of your voice on longer car journeys, or joyfully dancing around the kitchen. I started dancing at the tender age of three and thank God for that.
Or for softer feelings, crying in bed snuggled up to your favourite pet as the music holds you. It helps to comfort, soothe, and release whatever is needed in the moment.
Listen to my free healing playlist on Spotify.
8 - Some Kind of Bodywork (Somatic Healing)
This is where the trauma gets stuck - in your body. Listen to this podcast episode where you’ll hear me talk about what a trauma release can feel like. Rather than just talk about your feelings, somatic healers and therapists guide patients to focus on their underlying physical sensations. I’m a fan of Kinesiology, but Breathwork, Kundalini yoga, and EMDR are also highly rated in my book.
I am a huge fan of Lindsey’s Lockett, Trauma Educator and Nervous System Ninja. Her nervous system work is fantastic, and she has a straight-talking and compassionate approach. Five stars ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ I highly recommend.
9 - Doggies
This is little Moe. I’ve been his dog sitter for as long as I can remember. At the time of writing, he is an old man - 16 years-old, to be precise. His little warm body snuggled up next to mine on the sofa regulates my nervous system. He has taught me how to set boundaries and to trust again. He provides unconditional love, and a secure connection which reduces the feelings of isolation that come with childhood trauma. I adore him!
Studies have shown that interaction with dogs increases levels of oxytocin and dopamine, which have mood-boosting effects, and reduce cortisol (stress) levels.
“Connection is why we’re here. We are hardwired to connect with others, it’s what gives purpose and meaning to our lives, and without it there is suffering.”
― Brené Brown.
Please feel free to share in the comments what has worked for you as a highly sensitive soul on this path. We are all different and I don’t believe that one size fits all.
Until next time, take care.
Love
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Such good advice for working with and healing trauma - I've used pretty much all of these too, some completely unconsciously xx